If anyone out there is battling depression and you’re hurting the feelings of people that love you more than they love themselves do yourself a favor and get help. You can only hurt someone’s feelings for so long before they walk away from you.
Admitting your depressed and need help isn’t an easy thing to do. Sometimes its just easier to sweep how you really feel under the rug and smile and keep going about your day.
I never would have labeled myself depressed. I honestly never really have anything to be ‘sad’ about. To tell the truth I don’t even know what depression is. I never really ‘feel’ sad. I’m always cracking jokes….
I don’t have any clue how to deal with the emotions inside of me let alone how to express them to someone else. I usually get frustrated inside my head and just end up getting angry and saying things that are not only irrelevant but hurtful to anyone in hearing distance.
it took losing the one person who I know loves me for me, besides my children the love of my life, the one person I just want to have hold me and say it’s going to be alright, to finally walk away again to realize that I need psychological help.
I have an appointment next thursday to start figuring out what’s going on inside of me. I need to figure out how to get everything in order so when I’m asked how I’m doing I don’t respond with ‘I’m fine’ knowing everything is NOT fine.

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